Some people die,others are forever :)

Some of the best Marilyn Monroe quotes-

"All a girl really wants is for one guy to prove to her that they are
not all the same.”

“Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together”

“Dogs never bite me. Just humans.”

“Dreaming about being an actress, is more exciting then being

one."

Sometimes,a little of yourself won't cause something evil,just something making you happy :)

Being alone isn't that bad.

I was up all night reading,thinking-stuff I hadn't done since forever maybe.I thought about stuff that I had completely forgotten.

I started feeling smart,mature,better about myself.I stared at the sky from the balcony.I smiled.I felt happy,like really happy.I had not felt like this since a long time.I had so much on my plate ,I had forgotten to look after myself.I was more worried about other people in my life.I'm not saying I'm the "thinking-about-others-only" kind of girl,trust me I'm very selfish,but I was more engrossed in others' lives.

I thought about what I actually want to do in life (I know I'm only 14 but still).
I did not come up with really nice stuff but I thought about my life.I realized I was so much into parties and outings and friends and God knows what not,that I kinda forgot about ME.

Very vital conclusion-I rock and you can't change that.

This goes on and on.

So,yesterday I was hanging out with this super cool guy,let's call him "Sin"

He is the best-est.

Okay so, I know Sin for like 7 years now,I mean from second grade.He was in my class and was in Love with him.

First Love <3

More about him.
He is this really smart guy who knows everything,like everything!He is not book smart,he is just born smart or whatever.Best part is he loves being smart.You know the constant effort put in teenagers nowadays to be like super cool and stuff?
Yeah,well,he is not like that.He likes being the smart and geeky guy.He isn't ashamed of saying that he studied for 6 hours that day.

We were best friends since the second grade.Always competing for the first place in class.Well,he always won,but I was a close second.We talked about Secret Seven,Roald Dahl and sports.We used to get along really well.I loved spending time with him,even he did.
But all this changed.

I was in the sixth grade.People influenced me,changed me,corrupted me.I became like those teenage girls,worrying about my reputation,worrying about my looks,worrying about what people thought about me.I also had my popular elder brother.Looking at him,I was pushed from the inside to gain popularity too.

I changed.
Sin saw me change.
He did nothing.

I feel he should have something to get me back.
But instead he jut saw.
Saw me swearing at people,saw me keeping my sick boyfriends,saw me goofing around before my History exam (I suck at History) and the only thing he did was give me that "You've-change-but-I-don't-care" look.

I never went back to normal.I am still a teenage girl,worrying about my reputation,worrying about my looks,worrying about what people think about me.
I want to get back to my geeky and nerdy friends.
I want to get back to studying when I'm free.

But it just does not happen.I can't leave my friends now.I am happy with this life too.

Yesterday,Sin explained all this to me.He said that- You can't go back to normal now and You shouldn't too.You're still awesome and I'll never forget you.
This brought tears to my eyes.

Now,I'm not getting back to what I was,but I'll not neglect my studies.I am glad I have someone to explain all this to me.I guess,he'll always be there in the corner of my heart<3

Blow my heart up.Yeaaahh :D

Quotes
Drink coffee-Do stupid things faster.

Some people are alive just because its illegal to kill them.

Keep the earth clean,its not "Ur-anus"

Peace never goes out of fashion.

Me-

I can't really say something smart .

Don't forget the Hershey's syrup .

I would also add some cake on top if I were you.
Cause life is SWEET.

B-)