The sad,sad post.

Life is just not fair.
Me,being the girl who was in love with her life more than anyone could be,says this.

Sometimes people hurt you and get away with it.They are everything you need,everything you want,and they just leave.

Like, *Poof*
And gone :(

Hurts like hell and moves you from within in ways you can't imagine.


Actually,being hurt actually is an amazing lesson in life. (OhMyGod! I sound so lame.)
You should experience loss,abandonment or heart-breaks.Sounds crazy,huh?It is,crazy but true.

You never experience sad feelings-->Never experience life.

Life is all about this.Try and avoid,but it comes right back at you!Life seem perfect,you have tears of happiness,and then something happens.Why does God have to work this way?
I'm glad he does though.
Now,I feel I know what's right,how I should trust people.

Everyone I've ever loved truly till now has eventually left me.(Including my dad,just walked out of the house.)
I have changed my outlook on the world.Every time I'm actually happy in life,it goes.

Maybe I should just accept this,or I should wait for a miracle to take place.

Or maybe,just maybe,I have super cool powers and I'm chosen to save the world from The Flood again.


Anyways,my eyes have now opened,looking at the harsh realities of life and my mind has now awoken, training itself for the future.

I love you all.Don't ever leave me?

This goes on and on.

So,yesterday I was hanging out with this super cool guy,let's call him "Sin"

He is the best-est.

Okay so, I know Sin for like 7 years now,I mean from second grade.He was in my class and was in Love with him.

First Love <3

More about him.
He is this really smart guy who knows everything,like everything!He is not book smart,he is just born smart or whatever.Best part is he loves being smart.You know the constant effort put in teenagers nowadays to be like super cool and stuff?
Yeah,well,he is not like that.He likes being the smart and geeky guy.He isn't ashamed of saying that he studied for 6 hours that day.

We were best friends since the second grade.Always competing for the first place in class.Well,he always won,but I was a close second.We talked about Secret Seven,Roald Dahl and sports.We used to get along really well.I loved spending time with him,even he did.
But all this changed.

I was in the sixth grade.People influenced me,changed me,corrupted me.I became like those teenage girls,worrying about my reputation,worrying about my looks,worrying about what people thought about me.I also had my popular elder brother.Looking at him,I was pushed from the inside to gain popularity too.

I changed.
Sin saw me change.
He did nothing.

I feel he should have something to get me back.
But instead he jut saw.
Saw me swearing at people,saw me keeping my sick boyfriends,saw me goofing around before my History exam (I suck at History) and the only thing he did was give me that "You've-change-but-I-don't-care" look.

I never went back to normal.I am still a teenage girl,worrying about my reputation,worrying about my looks,worrying about what people think about me.
I want to get back to my geeky and nerdy friends.
I want to get back to studying when I'm free.

But it just does not happen.I can't leave my friends now.I am happy with this life too.

Yesterday,Sin explained all this to me.He said that- You can't go back to normal now and You shouldn't too.You're still awesome and I'll never forget you.
This brought tears to my eyes.

Now,I'm not getting back to what I was,but I'll not neglect my studies.I am glad I have someone to explain all this to me.I guess,he'll always be there in the corner of my heart<3

Blow my heart up.Yeaaahh :D

Quotes
Drink coffee-Do stupid things faster.

Some people are alive just because its illegal to kill them.

Keep the earth clean,its not "Ur-anus"

Peace never goes out of fashion.

Me-

I can't really say something smart .

Don't forget the Hershey's syrup .

I would also add some cake on top if I were you.
Cause life is SWEET.

B-)